When I started this blog and Project 365 in 2011, The Bear and The Princess were 8 years old and The Boy was 5 years old. At that time, the thought of having two 14 year olds and a soon to be 12 year old was very far off in my mind. I remember thinking that year that 8 and 5 were pretty cool ages. We had three children in school all day. The older two were beginning to play sports. There were many firsts happening. Mostly what I recall about that age was that they were still all mine. Ok, all our ours - you know what I mean. I didn't really need to share them with the world too much. There were no pressing social events, sports were still small potatoes and close by, they had no idea what a sleep over was yet (I held off on that as long as I could - not a fan), we hadn't really jumped onto the tech bandwagon yet, bedtime was still at 8pm, and overall life was simple. This blog and this project has followed us through 6 years. We now live with two teenagers and a preteen, their social calendars take precedent over my own on most days, sports somewhat rule our lives and take us in many directions across the state and over state lines, I still hate sleepovers, technology has infiltrated our lives, I am happy if I can stay awake longer than my kids although I really don't want to, and life has become infinitely more complicated. Now don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing. Just a fact. I have said for 6 years in this blog how quickly time goes....I am constantly surprised by that fact although I am not sure why. But if I thought that time moved quickly before, it seems to be in hyper speed lately. I have been having a hard time coming to terms with the reality that is quickly approaching. The Bear and The Princess are about to finish their middle school years and The Boy is about to end his elementary school career. In a few short months, I will have two 9th graders and a 7th grader. High School and Middle School. I find myself shaking my head in disbelief more often than not. I feel like there is an invisible count down chain hanging over my head, counting down the days until my babies leave the nest. I know that that sounds somewhat insane. It's like saying I'm going to be 50....someday. (note I am still on the front end of my 40's for now...that will be an insane post somewhere in the future....) So, I know it may sound crazy but the reality is, The Bear and The Princess are beginning high school and that means 4 more years until college. When I think about the 6 years that I have done this project, it seems like a second has gone by so I know that if I blink....everything seems to happen when I blink.... I will be sitting at a high school graduation and then another one shortly after...
I had a point somewhere at the beginning of this post. My point was that life is hectic and busy and full and while not simple, good and happy... However - you had to hear that however coming right? However, there are times - like the past two weeks when life seems to move faster than I can document while I am trying to just keep up. Two weeks ago, I began a long term substitute position back in second grade. Two days into the new position, I got sick with a fever and a sinus infection that knocked me on my butt. At the same time, life doesn't wait and kids needed to get to practices and games and dinners needed to be made and lesson plans needed to be written and antibiotics needed to finally start working and coughing needed to stop happening.... are you getting my drift? It was nuts. Today I completed my second week in second grade - I left the classroom ready for Monday and feel like I have a pretty good handle on things thanks to some very supportive coworkers. I also came home to dinner made thanks to a pretty supportive husband. Mother Nature threw me a bone today with some beautiful warm temperatures and sunshine and I was able to come home and run 5 miles before taking my teenagers to a school dance while my preteen played basketball with friends at the local court. I breathed it all in today. Life. All the crazy, all the busy, all the funny, all the messy, all of it.
Then I decided to sit down and catch up on this blog. I have never gone this long without posting photos and documenting. In the crazy of these last two weeks, I have not even gotten a photo for everyday. That has NEVER happened. But just as life has evolved over these past 6 years, so must this blog. So, here is what I propose since I foresee times when life may interfere like this again.... I am adding photos to this post that may or may not be from the days that I missed - Days 107 - 118. Project 365 is ultimately a way that try to document life's moments...big and small... there are no hard and fast rules to how I accomplish that. My only hope is that it serves as a time capsule for my children so that someday they can look back and remember all of the crazy, busy, funny, messy, happy moments of their lives.
Love them!!!!
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